If you follow my blog, (and thanks if you do), then you know that I am pretty transparent. I have no problem sharing my honest innards. You may find this pretty crazy, or self serving (a need for attention). I find it freeing.
Many of you have also watched the process we’ve been through with Harper since Kindergarten. You’ve watched us move through confusion, fear, frustration, evaluation, prognosis, and treatment. She has come out of the entire process with flying colors. In fact, we are now in the stage of giving her “vacations” from medication on the weekends. I’ve written about how much she has grown in previous posts, so I won’t rehash that. Simply put, she’s doing great. If you have read everything I’ve posted about Harper and then happen to meet her for the first time, you might demise that we are delusional regarding her ADHD. Sometimes I even wonder if she is still struggling underneath her incredibly humorous, brilliant, and vivacious outer shell.
You have also watched me, in an attempt to adapt to the happenings of the last two years, leave behind a coaching business, open a home business, communicate my heart and soul through writing, and attempt to regain a “normalcy”, only to find that “normalcy” is a fallacy. If we keep hoping for normal, we reject the present blessings that God has given us each day. I trust and believe that “His mercies are new every morning”. And yet in my attempts to find strength and power in our “new normalcy”, I have struggled abysmally.
Harper has been doing great now for 6 whole months.
I however, have never returned to the optimum health that I lived in 2006.
Eating healthy? No. Consistent exercise? No. Organized house? I know, I know, many of you think it’s ridiculous that I would describe myself as disorganized, but I am. Memory loss? Frankly, my short term memory has had some scary little dips. Spiritual life? Actually, pretty good thanks to Moms R Us and singing in the band, but my personal devotion times have been a constant struggle. Fellowship? Yes, but many times I’d rather just stay home. Retreating from getting together with people or leaving behind activities that were once fun? A little. I probably have the lingering effects of a non-diagnosed bit of depression. The days exhaust me. I’m irritable. Impatient. My brain and my body are fatigued.
I will be 40 this year.
Thank you. I don’t think I look it either.
I will be 40 this year and I will NOT enter this year in defeat. I will return to optimum health. But, doing so will take a hefty commitment and a change of lifestyle. I need to break out of the terrible habits that were adopted over the last two years.
And thanks to an impromptu comment from a friend of mine – whose comment I truly believe was voiced through the Holy Spirit – I will be embarking on a journey to seek health by unconventional means.
Beginning on Friday, with the help of a new Doctor (a chiropractor/acupuncturist/nutritionist) who has a commitment to treating Pastor’s and their families for free, I will be starting a 21 day detox plan to begin purging all the muck I feel inside. What muck?
Little do you know that I wake up feeling “hungover” every morning. Without caffeine I can’t get going. Period. I am in a constant fuzzy or scattered state. I have developed chronic neck and upper back pain. My hip joints hurt. Playing anything physical with the kids knocks me out. I am exhausted by 5 or 6 and don’t want to leave the house. I have sinus infections and what I believe to be undiagnosed allergies – and I really don’t want to resort to merely taking allergy med’s, as I think some natural remedies will actually be of more help. I struggle over making healthy meals and end up binge eating. It’s like I’m ADD. Seriously. This is no way to live. At least, not for me.
This is not me.
So, I will enter a 21 day detox, during which time I will most likely remove gluten, sugar, and who knows what else. Yep, it’s a flush of the entire system. Should be really pretty. I will also be meeting with the Doc weekly for adjustments and stretching.
It is such a gift. It’s unbelievable that my friend even mentioned the guy – as we weren’t even talking about health at the time. And it’s no surprise, as the Holy Spirit just loves surprising us, that after this conversation came a second similar one with another friend, completely unrelated to the first. She too shared her remarkable results through a 21 day detox program. Maybe unconventional methods are catching.
I am excited. Really excited. I don’t feel like me and I need to feel like me again. I think I am most excited to have someone else developing a plan for me rather than attempting to do so myself. I’m a pretty good rule follower and will follow a plan that is handed to me. I do not, however, have the patience to create one for myself.
What can you do to help? Support it. If we’re out and about and I refuse to eat or drink something, don’t press me with “Oh, come on. One little bite can’t hurt.” This is not helpful. Just be supportive. I can pig out with you some other time. Hold me accountable. Take it seriously with me.
I’ll keep you posted on the results . . .